One of my many character defects is that I nurse grudges. It’s something I can remember doing even as a young child, particularly with people who loved me the most, like my mother. Today I am appalled at how hurtful that must have been. What’s even more appalling is that I do it still. I know it must have a lot to do with forgiveness and I have a hard time with that.

Call it holistic, or metaphysical, or New Age or woo-woo, but the method to combat emotional conflict that’s intrigued me the most is Emotional Freedom Technique, otherwise known as EFT. It is a two-part process: psychology combined with the stimulation of meridian points (think ‘acupuncture’) that brings about release from the emotional trauma that’s causing one pain. I love that EFT is all-natural. Not that my boycott of it will affect the pharmaceutical industry, but I have a fundamental aversion to supporting it. Besides, let’s face it: a pill will not fix my problem. 

In my intro I mentioned “blindly delving” into my Golden Years, and this is one of those cases where I believe an old dog can learn new tricks. God willing, I have many more years ahead, so it’s to my benefit to finally address why forgiving is so hard for me. With this is mind, I enrolled in the 12-week course, EFT Deep Intimacy, taught by Dawson Church. Though I was hesitant for a number of reasons, the bottom line is that I must change my behavior.

The answer I seek is buried deep in my subconscious, and finding it is going to require unbridled honesty on my part. I don’t expect it to be pretty, and I expect that some things that come to light to be very painful to come to terms with. At the very least, the journey ought to be interesting; I’m just hoping that in the end (January 2016) the pleasure will be worth all the pain. I’ll keep you posted ?